As Rekha reminded me, today is the last day of this year. Just like the gone years, 2009 is also going to be locked in memories, is going to be something from past. I don’t feel much nostalgic about this year. The only thing that made me feel sad is...I won’t be writing in the same old diary which was with me for the past one year. I used to keep it near my pillow, everyday promising to write more next day but ends up in two or three lines as usual with a big yawn and a sloppy good night...Still I love those pages...its me ..Smiling dreaming, laughing, crying, scolding, bored, anguished, tired, happy, bold...
It was on my 8th grade that I seriously started writing it and...Oh…it is 10 year now... (Now only I counted .he he)
At times when I am all alone to myself I used to take all my diaries together from the hush-hush hiding place, spread it my bed and start reading from here and there. It is like turning all those days back. When I was small, I used to write very elaborately, based on time. What I did before going to school, what I chatted with my friends, their response….everything n everything...
As time passed I started using lot of secret codes (of course scared of my brother who finds only my diary as the interesting reading material!!! He used to make fun, quoting from my diary and I used to get really annoyed! Once I made a big issue and my dad “ordered” no one supposed to read my diaries other than me as diaries are something very personal. From that day, these pages belonged to me only; at least my brother was silent even if he was reading it!!! That was enough for me!).
When secret codes became boring/confusing (as I started forgetting the short forms which I only gave),I became poetic, using all words from the novels and text books and my topic will be only the relevant ones (at that time).
Then I became very much philosophical, analyzing my emotional status of the particular day …A sort of introspection. I used to make the things what I did appear right at the end of the day with all sort of explanation which now looks like total absurdity …I used to experiment with all sort of styles(like a letter, like a story , like a poem, like a conversation....)..
Then suddenly it stopped, I became so busy with my life that I missed so many months in my diary...Every time I saw my diary in my bag below all my dresses and books, I used to take never carried out promises to fill it next day, but it remained there untouched…I found so many reasons for that…First and foremost is that I moved to my college hostel, where I found talking and giggling as a non stop activity till the point I cant’ resist sleep, .Even if I get some time free I started getting more into web world with blogging ,mails and chat ..Slowly I drifted away from my old companion who I avoided as being time consuming; unsafe and outdated…
…Sometimes I feel relived that I didn’t write all those days into words. Sometimes I wish I have written those days... At least I could have find answers for so many of my stupid decisions I did, like I used to do before...Now ,I am left to think and think trying hard to understand and justify why I did like that ?Why I didn’t said that loud ?etc n etc with no specific answer.
I missed so many happy moments too which I could have cherished all through my life...I missed so many wonderful feelings and emotions I had gone through….Now I regret deeply that I missed an important part of my life coz I failed to jot all those moments in my little diary…
So on a fine day (sorry! Night) I started it again...Sometimes I do miss days coz there wont be anything special to write. Will b the same day, waking up startled by alarm, getting ready, going to office in hurry, having some talks and laughs ,silly small tensions ,worrying about career ,feeling home sick ,never ending complain about food, back to room, again some talks n snacks, much more laughter ,phone calls from family ,again feeling home sick, thinking about dieting and future a bit (doing nothing about both),talking in between, climbing to bed ,trying hard to get rid of the annoying headache and wish to sleep and at some point drifting without knowing that sleep finally hugged me snugly… ..
But mostly I do write something, at least a good night and do feel good about it…
So today I have to write a Good Bye note in the last page of my diary. As I told, I didn’t think this was a great year for me. But there are so many changes that happened, even in my attitude ,myself, my thinking, my surroundings…So much change that many times I find myself questioning on whatever I did earlier like a stranger. I think I am getting mature... (Hopefully)
Anyway we have to move on. And that’s all time, age and life is all about…
I got not many resolutions this time. I am just going to take and follow my decisions…Don’t know where it leads but at some point of life we have to be courageous enough to do something .…I will write about this again only if it comes out well…
So Bye 2009...Happy New Year…
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Sunday, December 27, 2009
How to react
What I came across today...Of course... News!!!…I don’t know how to react. Really, I don’t know.
A man who retired as one of Haryana's most senior policemen has been sentenced to six months in prison for molesting a teenager in 1990. The victim killed herself three years later. And now, Rathore's six-month sentence seems like a travesty of justice. He has already been granted bail and says he will appeal against this verdict.
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In a major security breach, an Indian national working as a cleaner at Medina airport in Saudi Arabia managed to travel on an Air India flight, carrying 273 Haj pilgrims from Saudi Arabia to India, hiding in the toilet of the aircraft.Habib Hussain, 26, from Moradabad in Uttar Pradesh, told the police that the contractor who employed him there had taken away his passport and harassed him. Finding no other way out to return home, he sneaked into the Air India flight to Jaipur.
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Just compare the two news stories on live. One Indian sneaked into Air India flight as a last measure to escape from harassment and been caught. I am damn sure he will get more imprisonment (6 months!!) and harassment from our authority than this powerful criminal who can speak to media and confidently ask India to forget the "old" issue.
It is not just another case where Indian judicial system came out with a ridiculous verdict. It is a case which makes every sensible Indian utterly hopeless. Who can we blame if youth takes side with violence/tolerance rather than going by so called law n order?
Being a citizen we have the right to know on what basis the court have given such a verdict. Going through this article, make, every Indian girl think twice before complaining on such situation. “Ruchka might have been alive if she took this issue less seriously or if she never bothered to complain.” This going to be the imprint Indians get after this case...Even such a thought is going to kill Women's integrity.
What a Great Samskar India got! We should be really proud! Indian democracy, Indian culture, Indian values, and Indian judiciary. All this so called greatness are merely turning to be nothing more than words and myths
It is not another case of corruption or money politics but it poses a serious question - What is right and what is wrong decision? In this case the final verdict proved that Ruchka’s decision was practically wrong after all…Should we allow this to happen? Should we let our children to believe this????
There should be an investigation on judicial verdict. I know our law doesn’t permit this, still there should be something...Something to prove that the teen who took a risky stand against evil was RIGHT..
I got only one prayer..Never let time and another sensational news take over this one..
A man who retired as one of Haryana's most senior policemen has been sentenced to six months in prison for molesting a teenager in 1990. The victim killed herself three years later. And now, Rathore's six-month sentence seems like a travesty of justice. He has already been granted bail and says he will appeal against this verdict.
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In a major security breach, an Indian national working as a cleaner at Medina airport in Saudi Arabia managed to travel on an Air India flight, carrying 273 Haj pilgrims from Saudi Arabia to India, hiding in the toilet of the aircraft.Habib Hussain, 26, from Moradabad in Uttar Pradesh, told the police that the contractor who employed him there had taken away his passport and harassed him. Finding no other way out to return home, he sneaked into the Air India flight to Jaipur.
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Just compare the two news stories on live. One Indian sneaked into Air India flight as a last measure to escape from harassment and been caught. I am damn sure he will get more imprisonment (6 months!!) and harassment from our authority than this powerful criminal who can speak to media and confidently ask India to forget the "old" issue.
It is not just another case where Indian judicial system came out with a ridiculous verdict. It is a case which makes every sensible Indian utterly hopeless. Who can we blame if youth takes side with violence/tolerance rather than going by so called law n order?
Being a citizen we have the right to know on what basis the court have given such a verdict. Going through this article, make, every Indian girl think twice before complaining on such situation. “Ruchka might have been alive if she took this issue less seriously or if she never bothered to complain.” This going to be the imprint Indians get after this case...Even such a thought is going to kill Women's integrity.
What a Great Samskar India got! We should be really proud! Indian democracy, Indian culture, Indian values, and Indian judiciary. All this so called greatness are merely turning to be nothing more than words and myths
It is not another case of corruption or money politics but it poses a serious question - What is right and what is wrong decision? In this case the final verdict proved that Ruchka’s decision was practically wrong after all…Should we allow this to happen? Should we let our children to believe this????
There should be an investigation on judicial verdict. I know our law doesn’t permit this, still there should be something...Something to prove that the teen who took a risky stand against evil was RIGHT..
I got only one prayer..Never let time and another sensational news take over this one..
Monday, December 21, 2009
I read a book yesterday..It is called “ The Secret”. Seeing the cover page I thought it as fiction stuff but to the contrast it was a self-help book. Again it made me wonder who will spent money on buying these type readings which can only give us some trash impractical advices that we can hardly follow in our daily life.
As there was nothing else than a 3 time read Femina I started glancing over the pages.
I won’t say it as exceptional but it was truly interesting. It was written by Rhonda Byrne.
(Later I googled and found out that it is one of the ever time best sellers and there is also a movie based on it)
“The Secret is a book, that presents what is claimed to be a centuries-old idea, the
Pseudo-scientific Law of Attraction, which means the power of an individual's positive thinking to change and influence outcomes in their lives. The book claims that by using the "Laws of Attraction", an individual can become wealthier, healthier, and happier. The book claims that the secrets outlined in the book have been known by famous and influential people for centuries, but that they have conspired to keep these secrets hidden from the general public for their own benefit”
It started with few quotes asking, what makes successful n unsuccessful people different. For me it was circumstances/opportunities. I had no doubt on this as I have given so much thought into a similar question - why someone is destined to breathe life in sorrow while someone is not. For me, it is simply based on the situations we are into. Some by birth, some by accident…
This book made me think it in another light, like making me view everything in a different angle. Though it cannot be called as panacea (too early to decide), it did give me a hope...
It is not just about thinking positive. More than thinking positive it is an insight on how to really apply this practically .And some are really worth practicing. It is about changing the direction of our future or creating future with our mind power.
When we think something, we are actually creating it. I am not going into in-depth coz it is a known concept to everyone.
I want to share some positive moves which did work for me.
When you wake up, think strongly that this day is going to be perfect. Whatever you are thinking think in positive terms. I stress positive” TERMS” .ie, If I want to loose weight ,never think that I will trim down my weight think that I will slim down .
Think about what you want to be and not what you don’t want to be.(Confused!??!). It is such a simple concept; it’s a simple mind game. Only think on what you wish to happen.
Only when we try to avoid we understand how much negatives we are using a day.
When we avoid those negative words we are avoiding negative thoughts, when we are avoiding negative thoughts we are avoiding negative incidents from happening. Every activity in this world is triggered by mind/thoughts .So control those triggers.
When we think or act we are creating and sending a frequency, if it is negative it will attract more negative energy while if it is positive it will attract more positive things to our life.
I tried to apply this and sometimes I took more than 5 minutes to get a proper replacement word that gives me the meaning I want(without being a negative) .We are so much in grilled into some words that we have never given a thought of an alternative. It is good when we think or talk to our self.
Before going to bed, do a recap on the day and replay the scenes or situations in the way you actually wanted it to be. Make our frequency into full positive .Create an image of your next day, in complete order, sketch it in the perfect way you want it. This makes your sleep calm n quite.
Just try it for 2 days strictly and you will be truly amazed by the result.
The three steps all should follow according to the book is to
ASK-Understand & ask the universe what you want
BELIEVE-Believe that it is on the way think about receiving it. It is a sort of tricking yourself to believe
RECEIVE …….
Earlier my strategy was:
Don’t get too much worried about anything, it won’t help anyway.
When there is an issue, think of alternatives or solutions. Reasons should be probed after giving the first aid.
Now, I think it is good if I can avoid that problem itself by just keeping all the worries out. That’s much better.
I found loads of comments about this book/concept. Some believed it fully, some have criticized it ruthlessly. I opt to stand in the middle. I got an Indian approach; everything got its own good n bad. Just take the good one and avoid the appalling…We have the ability to discrete.Blind followers will never be right because they will always be blind. So take what you think it is good and just discard the rest.
I don’t want to write supplementary coz the subject is vast and its vicinity stretch to beliefs, myths, art of meditation, power of concentration etc of which I am clueless just like you. I have promised to myself that I won’t write anything in this blog which I haven’t personally experienced or felt for. .
I tried out some tips from this book ,like trying to keep a positive note and felt really good…When I googled and read those comments I got confused. .But still I feel everyone should give a try..coz it really makes you feel good(i dont know what else to say)...
It doesn’t harm anyway…
Try...
As there was nothing else than a 3 time read Femina I started glancing over the pages.
I won’t say it as exceptional but it was truly interesting. It was written by Rhonda Byrne.
(Later I googled and found out that it is one of the ever time best sellers and there is also a movie based on it)
“The Secret is a book, that presents what is claimed to be a centuries-old idea, the
Pseudo-scientific Law of Attraction, which means the power of an individual's positive thinking to change and influence outcomes in their lives. The book claims that by using the "Laws of Attraction", an individual can become wealthier, healthier, and happier. The book claims that the secrets outlined in the book have been known by famous and influential people for centuries, but that they have conspired to keep these secrets hidden from the general public for their own benefit”
It started with few quotes asking, what makes successful n unsuccessful people different. For me it was circumstances/opportunities. I had no doubt on this as I have given so much thought into a similar question - why someone is destined to breathe life in sorrow while someone is not. For me, it is simply based on the situations we are into. Some by birth, some by accident…
This book made me think it in another light, like making me view everything in a different angle. Though it cannot be called as panacea (too early to decide), it did give me a hope...
It is not just about thinking positive. More than thinking positive it is an insight on how to really apply this practically .And some are really worth practicing. It is about changing the direction of our future or creating future with our mind power.
When we think something, we are actually creating it. I am not going into in-depth coz it is a known concept to everyone.
I want to share some positive moves which did work for me.
When you wake up, think strongly that this day is going to be perfect. Whatever you are thinking think in positive terms. I stress positive” TERMS” .ie, If I want to loose weight ,never think that I will trim down my weight think that I will slim down .
Think about what you want to be and not what you don’t want to be.(Confused!??!). It is such a simple concept; it’s a simple mind game. Only think on what you wish to happen.
Only when we try to avoid we understand how much negatives we are using a day.
When we avoid those negative words we are avoiding negative thoughts, when we are avoiding negative thoughts we are avoiding negative incidents from happening. Every activity in this world is triggered by mind/thoughts .So control those triggers.
When we think or act we are creating and sending a frequency, if it is negative it will attract more negative energy while if it is positive it will attract more positive things to our life.
I tried to apply this and sometimes I took more than 5 minutes to get a proper replacement word that gives me the meaning I want(without being a negative) .We are so much in grilled into some words that we have never given a thought of an alternative. It is good when we think or talk to our self.
Before going to bed, do a recap on the day and replay the scenes or situations in the way you actually wanted it to be. Make our frequency into full positive .Create an image of your next day, in complete order, sketch it in the perfect way you want it. This makes your sleep calm n quite.
Just try it for 2 days strictly and you will be truly amazed by the result.
The three steps all should follow according to the book is to
ASK-Understand & ask the universe what you want
BELIEVE-Believe that it is on the way think about receiving it. It is a sort of tricking yourself to believe
RECEIVE …….
Earlier my strategy was:
Don’t get too much worried about anything, it won’t help anyway.
When there is an issue, think of alternatives or solutions. Reasons should be probed after giving the first aid.
Now, I think it is good if I can avoid that problem itself by just keeping all the worries out. That’s much better.
I found loads of comments about this book/concept. Some believed it fully, some have criticized it ruthlessly. I opt to stand in the middle. I got an Indian approach; everything got its own good n bad. Just take the good one and avoid the appalling…We have the ability to discrete.Blind followers will never be right because they will always be blind. So take what you think it is good and just discard the rest.
I don’t want to write supplementary coz the subject is vast and its vicinity stretch to beliefs, myths, art of meditation, power of concentration etc of which I am clueless just like you. I have promised to myself that I won’t write anything in this blog which I haven’t personally experienced or felt for. .
I tried out some tips from this book ,like trying to keep a positive note and felt really good…When I googled and read those comments I got confused. .But still I feel everyone should give a try..coz it really makes you feel good(i dont know what else to say)...
It doesn’t harm anyway…
Try...
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
@blore
I was writing something abt all my crappy feelings n felt really gud wen i re read n hit the backspace button!!..Sometimes i feel i am getting worse with words but it is what i like most in this world so I am never going to stop this either...
My Hostel life is going really great..so many times i started to write but got so much confused with what to write..After our college it is usually said that our friendship chain will get shorter and thinner, but i feel quite the reverse..
At college we are more childish though very sincere n simple .But here its more mature ,realistic n so muchhh funnnnnn....We 4 ,its not abt hang outs or roaming around..it is simply about staying in our bed(never mine!!reason unexplained!)talking laughing n laughin n more laughing n more laughing..how to feel sad when we cant stop laughing ..
Starting with Miss Chottu ..who always falls down due to gravity issues n obeys all the principles from 9th physics text even while taking water from purifier ..who talks all about minimising wastage (heater ,food,water,money,fuel,paper....)but keeps light on whole night!!!We both have the special accomplishment of staying a whole night awake talking!!(2 MBAs!!!)
...Miss.Organised who finds its crazy to see three dumbos (all being outstanding performers!!!)bottled up with her ,trying hard with advice n scolding and finally ends up seeing iron box again in her bed (That too ,hot burning her finger:()))!gave up even the idea about being organised(happens everyday !!!)...She is the fav of all our parents coz she is the only ray of hope they see in our room..(Let us see who change!!!!!!!)
.Miss Dreamy ,with that wonderstrucken face ,even if the topic is about 'face wash' is our"gem"!!Dont take her sleepy comments in our discussions less serious ,she got never imaginable answers for all the questions like "payazhiraja"(Plz dont ask me to share that great joke ,i can never put it in words with full justice!!)Ok let me try...(Dialogue:"payashiraja getting released on Nov 1 ...gud...payashiraja mazhyu erinje keralam undaya dhivesemalle November 1!!!!!!!!!!anne thanne relaese!!!!!!ho bhayngerem!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)..
N finally me with my bed "cozy" with my clothes(more than 3/4th),books n who know what...,with never happening dream about sleeping earlier n not getting scolding for spilling everything i take (i donno wat goes wrong? watever i take ,let it be chocolate wrappers ,chips or my lip liner ..after 5 min it ll be on the table or on the floor (dancing of course!!)..
Thus we talk n talk n talk.....
There are ofcourse many side effects for this(too much talking):{
When we are in room,dont ever think of talking over phone without getting scolding form other side for not listening and for smiling/laughing at odd time ..Even when we get questions from other side like"who s der shouting?..never we will be in the sense to ask to stop those talk as we are (in truth )listening to that storyline...
nor wanna go out from the room n miss anything...
worst scene is getting ourself angry /shouting /crying over phone (trying hard not to laugh seeing the expressions on other's face)...
Not forgetting my memory hits..Choosing next day's office wear spending more than one hour ,thinking abt ironing and ,throwing it straight to bucket with full water!!!!
Sleeping with full new ideas(starting with fashion shows,family n friends,reality shows,ads ,history ,war and what not!!!) our poor dreamy grl cant even get proper sleep coz of dreamzz(Watever topic we discuss she ll have some dream abt that next day!!..ie roughly ,with more than 10 topic to think abt!!!...heavy loadings!!poor grl na?)
p.s-she bought a diary to scribble down her dreams n god knows where it is now..
Continuing ..
Waking up evryday late(even then we ll keep on talkingg)..forgetting to call "special ones"(girlz r grlzzzzz!!!!)..buying too much chips(we doo talk about diet..:)))...
etc can also be considered as serious side effects(Really!!!??)...
I never knew there is so much things happening a day until i started living in our room ..so much to say about a single day!!!!But it is like a routine ..without speaking it will be like ......i doono wat it ll be like...we ve never been.
Hey,Forgot to mention ..Its one year since am in blore!!!
...One year back on a beautiful December morning like today that I landed up in Bangalore... Chilling breeze, loud noises and strangeness of the place made me nervous.....Now, after a year, though the noise still annoy me ,I feel good to be here. I really do...
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My Hostel life is going really great..so many times i started to write but got so much confused with what to write..After our college it is usually said that our friendship chain will get shorter and thinner, but i feel quite the reverse..
At college we are more childish though very sincere n simple .But here its more mature ,realistic n so muchhh funnnnnn....We 4 ,its not abt hang outs or roaming around..it is simply about staying in our bed(never mine!!reason unexplained!)talking laughing n laughin n more laughing n more laughing..how to feel sad when we cant stop laughing ..
Starting with Miss Chottu ..who always falls down due to gravity issues n obeys all the principles from 9th physics text even while taking water from purifier ..who talks all about minimising wastage (heater ,food,water,money,fuel,paper....)but keeps light on whole night!!!We both have the special accomplishment of staying a whole night awake talking!!(2 MBAs!!!)
...Miss.Organised who finds its crazy to see three dumbos (all being outstanding performers!!!)bottled up with her ,trying hard with advice n scolding and finally ends up seeing iron box again in her bed (That too ,hot burning her finger:()))!gave up even the idea about being organised(happens everyday !!!)...She is the fav of all our parents coz she is the only ray of hope they see in our room..(Let us see who change!!!!!!!)
.Miss Dreamy ,with that wonderstrucken face ,even if the topic is about 'face wash' is our"gem"!!Dont take her sleepy comments in our discussions less serious ,she got never imaginable answers for all the questions like "payazhiraja"(Plz dont ask me to share that great joke ,i can never put it in words with full justice!!)Ok let me try...(Dialogue:"payashiraja getting released on Nov 1 ...gud...payashiraja mazhyu erinje keralam undaya dhivesemalle November 1!!!!!!!!!!anne thanne relaese!!!!!!ho bhayngerem!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)..
N finally me with my bed "cozy" with my clothes(more than 3/4th),books n who know what...,with never happening dream about sleeping earlier n not getting scolding for spilling everything i take (i donno wat goes wrong? watever i take ,let it be chocolate wrappers ,chips or my lip liner ..after 5 min it ll be on the table or on the floor (dancing of course!!)..
Thus we talk n talk n talk.....
There are ofcourse many side effects for this(too much talking):{
When we are in room,dont ever think of talking over phone without getting scolding form other side for not listening and for smiling/laughing at odd time ..Even when we get questions from other side like"who s der shouting?..never we will be in the sense to ask to stop those talk as we are (in truth )listening to that storyline...
nor wanna go out from the room n miss anything...
worst scene is getting ourself angry /shouting /crying over phone (trying hard not to laugh seeing the expressions on other's face)...
Not forgetting my memory hits..Choosing next day's office wear spending more than one hour ,thinking abt ironing and ,throwing it straight to bucket with full water!!!!
Sleeping with full new ideas(starting with fashion shows,family n friends,reality shows,ads ,history ,war and what not!!!) our poor dreamy grl cant even get proper sleep coz of dreamzz(Watever topic we discuss she ll have some dream abt that next day!!..ie roughly ,with more than 10 topic to think abt!!!...heavy loadings!!poor grl na?)
p.s-she bought a diary to scribble down her dreams n god knows where it is now..
Continuing ..
Waking up evryday late(even then we ll keep on talkingg)..forgetting to call "special ones"(girlz r grlzzzzz!!!!)..buying too much chips(we doo talk about diet..:)))...
etc can also be considered as serious side effects(Really!!!??)...
I never knew there is so much things happening a day until i started living in our room ..so much to say about a single day!!!!But it is like a routine ..without speaking it will be like ......i doono wat it ll be like...we ve never been.
Hey,Forgot to mention ..Its one year since am in blore!!!
...One year back on a beautiful December morning like today that I landed up in Bangalore... Chilling breeze, loud noises and strangeness of the place made me nervous.....Now, after a year, though the noise still annoy me ,I feel good to be here. I really do...
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Tuesday, December 8, 2009
Some movies make you delighted,jovial,confused,sad,disturbed or bored..list may go on as emotions itself never ends nor the link it having with us ,"humans"..ye,movies like books play with our emotions ,making us empathize towards the characters..inacting the role in our heart a hundread times ..
But,the last movie i watched simply shook me up..it made me think how little we uses the big life we got just coz we (think)dont have little time..Its again one more fiction -2012.It made me think so many time ,what if world ends like that?
I got just 2 more years..all got just two more years..
We had an intresting discussion abt dis movie at hostel which i really wanna share with you...nw have to go..will catch u soon..
But,the last movie i watched simply shook me up..it made me think how little we uses the big life we got just coz we (think)dont have little time..Its again one more fiction -2012.It made me think so many time ,what if world ends like that?
I got just 2 more years..all got just two more years..
We had an intresting discussion abt dis movie at hostel which i really wanna share with you...nw have to go..will catch u soon..
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
"wise thoughts"
Life is not something very easy to solve. Life is not very east to fight. Yet everyone finish his or her life in their own way in the limited time. At some point of time some remains happy n others miserable .The reason for all those happiness n misery is unknown n we give that to almighty .All the unknown things goes to him to define n explain.
At some day I might reach up, to hear him say why all this happen. I might cry or laugh thinking how stupid I was, thinking and reacting foolish all this way.
Still I love my life….
I have my own worries, my own doubts, happiness n misery still I love to live coz each day is different and every moment so promising that I hope for the next moment
That’s the surprise of life. We r turned n turned, roles n roles, but what we know about all this is just nothing yet we r proficient in everything
We see the real human when he is hurt
We see a real human when he is losed
We see a real human when he is hungry
We see a real human when he is nothing
We see a real human when he is alone
If one lives through all this, if he overcome all the pitiful glances n disgusting comments, if a begger fight his hunger with an old bread crump n warm his body with a sack, he know life. He know, life is not so beautiful, life is not easy but still he arrived ..He lived. He finished his life time in the most difficult role .He was successful.Can he be??
Philosophically I can say anything but the silent tears he swept from his hollow cheeks, his silent prayers asking why he was chosen to suffer , the silent days when he thought of nothing but food, the feeling that swarmed up seeing his children’s tired eyes…….why the world is full of people who is soo different in everything from thoughts to food, from dress to colour, from looks to language…
I donno the answer ….but I just want to live happily helping others n making everyone around me smile .I love everyone, I love every flower, I love every music, I love every shades of colours….
I am not simple but I love to be simple…
Like so many have said before…Happiness is something we all have in ourself ,its not our life,our situation nor the happenings around us that makes us happy or not…
Simply believe ..
Everything happens for a reason…
Wait for the next day, believe firmly something will be there to bring the goodness.
When we give something to other, we may not get it back from the same but it might be from the least unexpected…
Don’t feel sorry about anything that happened..
Life is a challenge-we ve to meet it
Life is a gift –we ve to accept it
Life is a mystery-we ve to solve it
Life is a journey –we ve to finish it
Life is a battle –we ve to win it
At some day I might reach up, to hear him say why all this happen. I might cry or laugh thinking how stupid I was, thinking and reacting foolish all this way.
Still I love my life….
I have my own worries, my own doubts, happiness n misery still I love to live coz each day is different and every moment so promising that I hope for the next moment
That’s the surprise of life. We r turned n turned, roles n roles, but what we know about all this is just nothing yet we r proficient in everything
We see the real human when he is hurt
We see a real human when he is losed
We see a real human when he is hungry
We see a real human when he is nothing
We see a real human when he is alone
If one lives through all this, if he overcome all the pitiful glances n disgusting comments, if a begger fight his hunger with an old bread crump n warm his body with a sack, he know life. He know, life is not so beautiful, life is not easy but still he arrived ..He lived. He finished his life time in the most difficult role .He was successful.Can he be??
Philosophically I can say anything but the silent tears he swept from his hollow cheeks, his silent prayers asking why he was chosen to suffer , the silent days when he thought of nothing but food, the feeling that swarmed up seeing his children’s tired eyes…….why the world is full of people who is soo different in everything from thoughts to food, from dress to colour, from looks to language…
I donno the answer ….but I just want to live happily helping others n making everyone around me smile .I love everyone, I love every flower, I love every music, I love every shades of colours….
I am not simple but I love to be simple…
Like so many have said before…Happiness is something we all have in ourself ,its not our life,our situation nor the happenings around us that makes us happy or not…
Simply believe ..
Everything happens for a reason…
Wait for the next day, believe firmly something will be there to bring the goodness.
When we give something to other, we may not get it back from the same but it might be from the least unexpected…
Don’t feel sorry about anything that happened..
Life is a challenge-we ve to meet it
Life is a gift –we ve to accept it
Life is a mystery-we ve to solve it
Life is a journey –we ve to finish it
Life is a battle –we ve to win it
worries!!
I never thought of job as something with so much importance than something to earn money until I started looking for a job. Now I know how much important it is to be in the right job .Lucky are the one who got job which matches with their talents n interest. Qualifications are nothing but paper sacks that burden our head. It makes us take a way that is prescribed for those typical bundle carriers.
But in this world when everyone searching for the right job it’s so difficult to find out what we want over what we get. Money is just a compensation .If we all work in the field which we like we will try to excel, to develop our self even if we r not up to mark. We will be ready to do hard work coz we know that’s what we r destined for n that’s where our true interest lies.
That’s what makes me tensed all in my life when I realized this truth. What if I am caught in the wrong job? I may work, I may earn. but don’t think about growth in a positive way, don’t think about a day when u get a real appreciation which u desired for rather than what you worked hard for....
Ye attitude matter a lot
We may get adopted, we may get accepted but what in the real depth of ours can b quite different n that makes life so difficult when it seems so smooth…..
.The question remains .am I in someone’s else shoe? Why I always feel like I have to change all this and this is not what I wan me to be? Why I think all my work as meaningless even when I get appreciation? Why I feel useless when all other think am worthy. Because even when we act very good, taking out all energy to make the mark ,the one thing we all forget…It needs only dedication n interest to do a real work in the right way if u r the real person. Others struggle n struggle to meet other’s expectation ignoring ours.
But what is right n wrong is again a question?
In life we reach this point for almost everything. What I want from me? What others expect? And all talk about recognition from others and self satisfaction!!!
Why we all look for others response n recognition more than self satisfaction?
I donno..me too includes in that category…
We need good salary, high pay means high status; high status means power n recognition.
But only few reach there. Others struggle to get there. But don’t you think it was there way n our way might be different?
Qualifications are very rare match to our interest. Our interest may not offer job security, may not pay your fat bills, may not make your parents proud. .still… u wont be bored at work..u wont be sad to take Saturday not as holiday n wont be getting out of the bed thinking how sad it’s a working day…Its not a guarantee still we can be assured .We have a hope to excel. We have a hope to stand out rather than just like being 1 out lakh…And once we really achieved something from our passion ,that only gives you true happiness not doubting about self satisfaction nor recognition .It will all be there…
a short cut to happiness is simply doin wat u love to do..
But in this world when everyone searching for the right job it’s so difficult to find out what we want over what we get. Money is just a compensation .If we all work in the field which we like we will try to excel, to develop our self even if we r not up to mark. We will be ready to do hard work coz we know that’s what we r destined for n that’s where our true interest lies.
That’s what makes me tensed all in my life when I realized this truth. What if I am caught in the wrong job? I may work, I may earn. but don’t think about growth in a positive way, don’t think about a day when u get a real appreciation which u desired for rather than what you worked hard for....
Ye attitude matter a lot
We may get adopted, we may get accepted but what in the real depth of ours can b quite different n that makes life so difficult when it seems so smooth…..
.The question remains .am I in someone’s else shoe? Why I always feel like I have to change all this and this is not what I wan me to be? Why I think all my work as meaningless even when I get appreciation? Why I feel useless when all other think am worthy. Because even when we act very good, taking out all energy to make the mark ,the one thing we all forget…It needs only dedication n interest to do a real work in the right way if u r the real person. Others struggle n struggle to meet other’s expectation ignoring ours.
But what is right n wrong is again a question?
In life we reach this point for almost everything. What I want from me? What others expect? And all talk about recognition from others and self satisfaction!!!
Why we all look for others response n recognition more than self satisfaction?
I donno..me too includes in that category…
We need good salary, high pay means high status; high status means power n recognition.
But only few reach there. Others struggle to get there. But don’t you think it was there way n our way might be different?
Qualifications are very rare match to our interest. Our interest may not offer job security, may not pay your fat bills, may not make your parents proud. .still… u wont be bored at work..u wont be sad to take Saturday not as holiday n wont be getting out of the bed thinking how sad it’s a working day…Its not a guarantee still we can be assured .We have a hope to excel. We have a hope to stand out rather than just like being 1 out lakh…And once we really achieved something from our passion ,that only gives you true happiness not doubting about self satisfaction nor recognition .It will all be there…
a short cut to happiness is simply doin wat u love to do..
a small note..
If I didn’t start yet I may sigh one day thinking sadly on how I missed to jot down all this beautiful moments………………
I never checked grammar with very much interest when I write, bcoz for me it is a secondary thing. I want to give life n feel to the sentences rather than bothering about sentence construction and grammar. I believe in words speaking life rather than a no mistake sentences .But from today I made it a point to be little bit serious about using my grammar coz in life everyone earns n try for perfection an am tryin 2 b on d same way for a change .
Now I am seriously thinking about learning more idioms. Some years back I used to run when my dad jokingly ask meaning of some words n idioms ,thinking why we need so many words when the words I know r quite enough to express my thoughts.
But life is always ready with answers .Now I understood the importance of being perfect and also about getting more n more words in our mind’s dictionary. Only when we have more n enough words we could use it bountifully just like money. We don’t have to gauge n use when we have ample amount
I never checked grammar with very much interest when I write, bcoz for me it is a secondary thing. I want to give life n feel to the sentences rather than bothering about sentence construction and grammar. I believe in words speaking life rather than a no mistake sentences .But from today I made it a point to be little bit serious about using my grammar coz in life everyone earns n try for perfection an am tryin 2 b on d same way for a change .
Now I am seriously thinking about learning more idioms. Some years back I used to run when my dad jokingly ask meaning of some words n idioms ,thinking why we need so many words when the words I know r quite enough to express my thoughts.
But life is always ready with answers .Now I understood the importance of being perfect and also about getting more n more words in our mind’s dictionary. Only when we have more n enough words we could use it bountifully just like money. We don’t have to gauge n use when we have ample amount
Monday, March 9, 2009
Tick tick ..me again!!
Spaces created by time n thoughts..
Spaces that create time n thoughts...
Spaces to create time n thoughts...
Yet ,space is what we never give to time n thoughts...
I have kept silent for some months ..No reason specific but i felt it nice to give myself some space to be myself again..Changes ..I can feel the wind of change blowing in my life..
hooooooooo...........
hey,Dnt think i am goin to spill some pathtic stories..of course not..i was moody for sometime n felt like i need to be back again..So i started with gettin back to words,where i feel always so comfortable..Now am in Bangalore...i miss my home terribly..
You know(i know u donno,still for my sake..he he),i never used to be moody coz its very difficult for me to go on without talking ..(small tip:moody talk no one entertain!!!!).SO the rare momnets when n were i get moody i used to thoroughly celebrate it as something big..as some havoc..he he..(celebrating havoc??am i hitting too much nonsense ?if u think so dnt go further ..)
N why i missed so many days in my blog space is simply that when i got time i dont have "internet" n when i get that i wont be havin some time to spare...And i think that got too long ...today i suddenly thought of scribbling something even if its just 3 or 4 words..Bcoz once i start i always try to catch up with the string..just like we talk to people..if we talk to a friend once in a month ,a 10 min call is more than enough but if we start to talk everyday,we ll b having more n more things to talk..So i am sure that from now i ll be having more n more things to write..
I losed my bag with my fav cutty mobz , purse n atm card..i was busy gettin all things right n for the first time i realized that i too could be a victim of theft!!Every one around assured me with stories of themselves losing almost 3 to 4 mobiles...Anyway i felt very much pacified hearing that i am not alone...
dat made me very responsible!!(Some might be again raising their eyeborws..please, i have improvedddd..oky?)..This is the prob with having so many friends knowing about us too much..We cant simply lie..he he..
Winding Up for now..keepin the strings tight in my arms n hope to stay S*T*R*I*N*G*E*D..will b back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DATED-MONDAY MARCH 09,2009
Spaces that create time n thoughts...
Spaces to create time n thoughts...
Yet ,space is what we never give to time n thoughts...
I have kept silent for some months ..No reason specific but i felt it nice to give myself some space to be myself again..Changes ..I can feel the wind of change blowing in my life..
hooooooooo...........
hey,Dnt think i am goin to spill some pathtic stories..of course not..i was moody for sometime n felt like i need to be back again..So i started with gettin back to words,where i feel always so comfortable..Now am in Bangalore...i miss my home terribly..
You know(i know u donno,still for my sake..he he),i never used to be moody coz its very difficult for me to go on without talking ..(small tip:moody talk no one entertain!!!!).SO the rare momnets when n were i get moody i used to thoroughly celebrate it as something big..as some havoc..he he..(celebrating havoc??am i hitting too much nonsense ?if u think so dnt go further ..)
N why i missed so many days in my blog space is simply that when i got time i dont have "internet" n when i get that i wont be havin some time to spare...And i think that got too long ...today i suddenly thought of scribbling something even if its just 3 or 4 words..Bcoz once i start i always try to catch up with the string..just like we talk to people..if we talk to a friend once in a month ,a 10 min call is more than enough but if we start to talk everyday,we ll b having more n more things to talk..So i am sure that from now i ll be having more n more things to write..
I losed my bag with my fav cutty mobz , purse n atm card..i was busy gettin all things right n for the first time i realized that i too could be a victim of theft!!Every one around assured me with stories of themselves losing almost 3 to 4 mobiles...Anyway i felt very much pacified hearing that i am not alone...
dat made me very responsible!!(Some might be again raising their eyeborws..please, i have improvedddd..oky?)..This is the prob with having so many friends knowing about us too much..We cant simply lie..he he..
Winding Up for now..keepin the strings tight in my arms n hope to stay S*T*R*I*N*G*E*D..will b back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DATED-MONDAY MARCH 09,2009
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