new thoughts

Same rays pouring in
Waking me up tetchy
My cozy pillow alluring me more

Prayers, plans n plans
Cold splash shaking my spirit
Combing my lazy hair

Starting out one more day

Words n colors inviting
To charm me up in there world
Oh! I have got a different list
What I like is always a doubt
Troubling me round and round
That again left to life
Always the easy way to choose

Bubbling friends filling the days
Cracking jokes twisting lips
Troubled mind stare me in wonder

Same days passing
Making me feel strange

A fresh wind full of snowy mist
Dripping me fresh
Calm thoughts sliding in
I waited for a change

Once more the rays poured in
Woke me up tetchy
With my cozy pillow to allure me more....



Alone in my dreams i walked fast
To reach a destiny i am sure of..
Sandy wind and burning sun
Paved me the way ..
Gone are the days of colors,mist and greeny valley.

Time Woke me up from my favourite dream
Everything looked strange and new.

Faceless heartless the world is
Pushing me to smile with my crushed tears ..
Clueless i stood..watching the show..
Where i have no role to play
Waiting for a slot,never written for me
Which i took long to realize..

Leaving the stage behind
i touched the sand to float me away
away and away ..far away from this land..





















Hi,
Life is a bird with different wings to fly..we have to yet understand whether if it is ourselves who choose this wings or some other selects for us…Anyway we change this wings just like we change our directions .
In our life,when we reach a point ,where we stare with wonder how to move forward ..…When we feel that colors are slowly fading …emptying yourself into vacant thoughts ..n what left is blankness..
-A change -in thoughts,perspectives n priorities –is the only remedy. ..


I was talking about my blog to one of my friends n was thinking how could make this page helpful to atleast some..i had thought about it 1000 times n finally I will crush my thoughts with the answer-am writing for myself and not for others.n why I should be bothering about that!!-..ok let it be like that…If anyone have any new ideas ,I do welcome .oky???


I always tried to look life as a game ,where I have to play my roles well. And of course, I feel strange n confused when the response I get for my actions are different from my expectations .I always defines this responses as the outcomes of some external factors which I could not explain. But u know,I confronted with some situations recently which proved myself to be wrong.In our life we have lot of situations which we simply handle wrongly n carelessly .At that time all that things appear very casual n very natural.When we face the problem ,we get confused n depressed not knowing the reason nor the solutions.Later ,when we sit peacefully n think ,we understands how the situations might have made simple if we had been a little more careful earlier.
Success of a person is simply based on the rightness of the decisions he make. Everyday, Everyhour we are making decisions one after other ,to do something,not to do something n so on.Whatever we think, we will have alternatives in our mind.Whatever we choose,surely there will be something which we had avoided.Even if we choose the wrong one or the right one at the bottom of heart ,our decision will be questioned till we get the right/desired response And the funniest thing is that 90 out of 100 will choose to follow the one that seems easy and appealing at present.
When we take some decisions it is really very easy to get the right choice.a)if we select something n if we r thinking about excuses to avoid the other one b)if select one and we r thinking about excuses to select the other one.
Then be sure that that second one is the right one because right may not be very appealin at present nor easy to follow. Its human instinct to choose the easy one and psychologically everyone will try hard to make ourselves believe that the easiest one is the wisest choice.
Sometimes it might be true too but life is not that much simple.
In short, Shortcut for success in life is not taking shortcuts in life.

For fools,life appears to be too simple to live coz they r living in fools world where fun n food are the only things that matter.
But we have to think about others too na?

Do you know what the present day problem is?Number of this fun loving fools are increasing that ,they think others are fools!!!Finally the people who stand in between or the young ones get confused about who the real fools are and whom they have to follow.
This is where our world stands now.
Helo!!!!!Some ,surely have to help them out ..Dont force anyone to accept anything but atleast give them space to think and act rather than pushing them to follow someone else.
Let them decide to which category they wanna be.

wind of time can't grab from me

This day too started as usual. .late wake up, scrambling around to make up my time table, taking never-followed resolutions, chit chat with friends, working on my project, going out with amma for a small shopping, rushing back to open the door for achen who came earlier…forgetting to return the library book …

We forget everything pretty fast and it takes only fraction of a mille second to tide them back to our world …

2day I missed my grandfather very very very much…..When I arranged his wardrobe with all his dresses, files,books,some fading old letters,small small boxes ,his rudhraksha mala…I felt him there.his presence,his voice,his smell,his smile ,his frowns and d way he calls me….

Its so strange how people vanish from our lives so quick and how swiftly we live forward.He lived with us….He used to talk about everything under the sun ..When we were children me n etten slept hearing his stories .Still I have lot of stories in my heart with unknown endings..

I might have fallen asleep, my etten was always a better listener ..…Everyday after his routine evening walk he ll have two chocolates…

It was very difficult for us ,when he went away, not to wait for him in the evening...Unknowingly we went to his room to tell him something ,to take something ,to ask him something and suddenly we realize that he is not there….We felt our home drenched in silence…The depth of that silence only four of us know…and mostly to amma who stayed back at home when we all went to office n college…He was our part n d way we miss him no one in this world will…

When he was admitted in the hospital..when everyone said there is no hope..we prayed hard with full of hope and confidence..,Till then we had never felt ,we never knew ,that one among us can simply fly away like that.He was 82 and Its now 4 years…But still that day reminds me of my shocked tears, too warm for my cheeks n those white hospital grills on which I gripped hard....

Many say I look like him n sometimes talk like too…He was pretty strict and very much disciplined unlike me..And I was his only granddaughter who talked to him whatever comes to my head.Sometimes he turned angry but at the bottom of the heart we both knew each other very well …and I got tricks to cheer him up..

I was always a complaining box uttering “appoopen like etten more n not me”…He knew it is my idea to get more attention n he laughed when I said like that.

.Often I was there with him to arrange his room .I was a very curious naughty little girl that I pocked my nose into every box and old cover ,reading all old letters I could get.. I can still hear his scolding call “athiraaaa… ..”..and see me putting everything back very quickly with a slinky winky smile …All that moments now I hold very close to my heart like his smell and voice…That’s the only things we have got, to keep, unscathed by the wind of time…We never realise how important someone was in our life until they walk off…

We still keep his room in the way he had kept….His things in the place where he had choose to keep…Every time I achieved something or got something special I feel like running to his room ,sitting near his chair n telling

him how much happy I am…But...

His chair lay vacant, both in his room n in our life…

He still lives in our heart, guiding us, caring us …

Today 29th July 08../8 15 pm…

Today I can’t just scrawl up words with my routine n usual talks…There is more imperative issues to share. Not secrets but some facts…
The serial bombings in Ahmedabad and Bangalore, which have taken a toll of nearly 50 lives and injured more than 150 people, have demonstrated just how dangerous the terrorist threat to India’s major cities continues to be. Even if we consider all this as part and parcel of our modern life where we just view incidents rather than feel, the character of the violence is horrifying, after all, it takes a special kind of savagery to bomb a hospital. Union home minister Shivaraj Patel has promised a “comprehensive plan” to deal with the challenge-but did not spell out what action was contemplated nor why the union government has taken 5 years to decide that it must have one. Forlornly, pronouncements like this have followed each terrorist attack in recent years, as part of a ritualistic set of actions intended to reassure people that government is working to make their lives more secure-Police deployment in public places enhanced, random checks on traffic being stepped up, and metal detectors installed in shopping complexes. But the truth is that not a single “today’s” terrorist has been arrested in street checks nor have searches at shopping complexes led to the detections of even one bomb. Measures like these cannot meet the terrorist threat. Cities, as any educated man knows, cannot be turned into fortresses.
This incidents showed how much vulnerable we are to these kind of attacks and how pathetic human appears when government reassure life with monitory compensation…
Can we blame d young generation for being “mute”.. Thats what they SEE..

Don’t you think its high time that the responsible people should react..

For a terrorist attack like this to happen ,there needs two factors..one a strong motive /intention to cause violence and the next is the “way/methods” to do this act
For motives and intentions to be controlled ,as in a country like India there should be lot of changes ,which we are still not sure about…issues dat includes land,money,power n religion…anything can be the reason..
But when we think about “how a terrorist attack could be possible?”. There we get a small hope for the future light…Why cant we make the rules little more vigilant? Most State police forces remain understaffed, under trained and under equipped.. truely pathetic na?
On paper license are needed to buy and store explosive materials.but as being a common educated Indian do you think its soo hard for you to get all that????
Again ,all this have to be checked by proper authorities but are they doing that? Where will they get time for all this when they are too busy being in power and politics.. .

..Ofo ..Powercut!!!!Last year ,heavy rains in southeren India led to the south west monsoon ending with above average nation wide rainfall.In striking contrast this year large parts of the south suffers a drought..hmm…let it be..for that I don’t ve any solution …when we have spark inside who need electric illumination(thank god !! my laptop battery is full..he he )

I don’t even want to mention about all that happened in Lok sabha a few days back..
What the government and its leaders have not taken into account is that these reforms and changes they make do not depend merely on a numerical majority in the Lok sabha..
Why this government think Indians are idiots ??There are educated,non politicized Indians who still care for this nation,who welcome new changes,,. Don’t they think it is there responsibility atleast to convince this few about their decisions ???If all this deal aim at something that is really good and benefitial..ok let us whole heartedly agree..but why cant they convince us? Why cant they explain loudly n clearly that they r moving on a right path..hmmm…I doonoo….

Ok!Can we call it a day???
Feeling really tired…gushnite.. Have a nice sleep…(After all ,that’s d only panacea I can suggest.. he he)
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again here

Hiii

its me ,signing in again , after a longgggggggggggg break? When I last wrote the date was April 24 and now its July 23...if u ask me y, I will say I was busy n anyway u have to believe what I say .So why need so many explanations???...he he..
As usual am here to scribble something which am surely donno wat …n at present I ve gt nothing in my head(don t say as usual..he he)
Tomorrow I ve lot of stuffs to do..i have to work on my final sem project,I ve got some assignments from my sweet mom, in btw I ve to be with some of my frendzz ,n evening v ve some guest too..rlly busy na???
I donno if u ve heard ..world ‘s oldest blogger passed away( few days back) age 108 after posting a final message about singing “a happy song”in her nursing home... cool na?She had posted more than 70 entries on her blog since February 2007,sharing her thoughts on modern life and her experience living through the 20th century…
Anyway 2maro I ll read that blog for sure….this thing I cn be sure..he he..even if I didn’t touch my project or get scoldin from mom for not helping her...i wnt miss my frends n this blog which ve got my real intrst..what can I do ..i like to do only things which I ve some intrest in…..i belive in- wat u do, do it with ur full heart ,otherwise don’t bother to do

Monsoon again banging on my window. last time when I wrote about rain I ws in a beautiful valley with mist n mountains around ,painting my dreams in bold colours…
Now I feel so cozy to be at home..in my room..now d time is 6 in d morning..people who know me very well may raise up their eyebrows..ye ,am awake….if u ask me y,again d answer will be nothing..watever it is d thing is dat am simply awake in dis fine morning..with drizzly rain spotting shades of rainbow on my window pane …givin me a perfect setting to do wat I like most….dats why am here simply to make this time more dear…
do u know wat I miss most about my college..its dis rain…yday I told dis to one of my friends n she was laughing..i asked her to go n feel it there ..den only u ll get wat I mean…hmm.no no..no grumbling today..am not in a mood to grumble for anything..I am so happy n high in spirit with lot of energy bubbling in…
everyday I think about wat to write in my blog ..i am planning to go for bloggin everyday..donno if it ll be wrkin on d right way..anyway I am at home ,n have got enough time ..so wat else to do..?he he
am resuming this page after 7 hours…after writing all dat sunlit words I fell asleep…he he..and only nw I cud get time to write again….
Time going pretty fast … hours flying …and we r left to wonder…
Am hearin a song from “Race”,,pehle nazar,,,,nice one na??

Getting some msgs frm frends..its a real bliss to feel dat some one remembers u wen u least xpect it….
Oh..amma callin..let me go.. Endurance is essential n obedience is imperative to avoid catastrophe…he he..bye
Have lot to tell you.
.will catch u in this same space of mine ...sooonn…...
Take care
Bye
Athira
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)))when words are the only thing left((((

Perhaps this could have stayed unstated

Had my words turned to other things

Life would have quickened other strings

Words can strike codes of unknown music

Which we long to hear....

But now it s the time to say" bye "..with smile on ur lips,tears in ur eyes n silent sobbs from ur heart...

Stories untold,gifts unopened...we are leaving.....never ever will all be the same...

athira

(for more pics check www.myworld-athi-athi.blogspot.com )

hw will go frm dis blessed land..???

6 more days in my campus....

A short but long break....last i wrote on 15 march, nw its 24th april..

Today was our Farewell party..thus my so called campus life is coming to an end..........

From the time of my first memory i am a student n nw dat is goin to change..so fast, so swiftly dat even i cannot feel anything...i am the same but my role is anew,fresh....

Now i have more things to dream..wide horizon to achieve ..i donnoo what not...but ..but..i love to be a student ,it was very much safe n familiar.......its not only about not being a student anymore..but..

i am not at all in a gud mood to write..feeling bit low..may b d feelin of missing veryone and dis place playing trick on me...only nw i realize dat i ws very much close to all dis and.....i will miss evrything..even the yellow flowers in our hostel...i loved ech n evrything about dis campus and nw i ve only tears left to console ....parting is paining as usual..all these people ,buildings n nature was so interwined to me dat i could not accept that am going away from here...

in the first days of our college i was among the very few who liked this place and the only one who openly said"i love this campus"..its true that ,dis college is in a remote place ..more poetically we can say..tucked away from the rush n hush of cities into a beautiful valley with full of mist n dew drops....where green shades drapes the mountains to name it as nature..where rain pour into our heart n wind blow into our soul....this spirit..this i ll surely miss...n i cant believe dat its no more my "home far away from home"..from a student am moving into an alumini....from d present am moving to d past....All these r going to be memories ...memories to be framed n dey no more breath life.............................................hw sad...change are the only thing in the world that never change...

2 years ..hw fast it all went..the first days,tensions,excitment,dreams.... friends,hostel ,class , examz....in btw all these small words lies the world of mine which i loved a lot...here is the people i loved most next to my family...

i ll continue nxt day...feelin so low dat i fell downright for words..i cant put myself together to write..so many pictures rushing into my mind n lot of faces....miss you all....really miss these days.....it was quite wonderful to be together like dat, day n night.....dat may b y we all r so close ...love u ...

athira