6 more days in my campus....

A short but long break....last i wrote on 15 march, nw its 24th april..

Today was our Farewell party..thus my so called campus life is coming to an end..........

From the time of my first memory i am a student n nw dat is goin to change..so fast, so swiftly dat even i cannot feel anything...i am the same but my role is anew,fresh....

Now i have more things to dream..wide horizon to achieve ..i donnoo what not...but ..but..i love to be a student ,it was very much safe n familiar.......its not only about not being a student anymore..but..

i am not at all in a gud mood to write..feeling bit low..may b d feelin of missing veryone and dis place playing trick on me...only nw i realize dat i ws very much close to all dis and.....i will miss evrything..even the yellow flowers in our hostel...i loved ech n evrything about dis campus and nw i ve only tears left to console ....parting is paining as usual..all these people ,buildings n nature was so interwined to me dat i could not accept that am going away from here...

in the first days of our college i was among the very few who liked this place and the only one who openly said"i love this campus"..its true that ,dis college is in a remote place ..more poetically we can say..tucked away from the rush n hush of cities into a beautiful valley with full of mist n dew drops....where green shades drapes the mountains to name it as nature..where rain pour into our heart n wind blow into our soul....this spirit..this i ll surely miss...n i cant believe dat its no more my "home far away from home"..from a student am moving into an alumini....from d present am moving to d past....All these r going to be memories ...memories to be framed n dey no more breath life.............................................hw sad...change are the only thing in the world that never change...

2 years ..hw fast it all went..the first days,tensions,excitment,dreams.... friends,hostel ,class , examz....in btw all these small words lies the world of mine which i loved a lot...here is the people i loved most next to my family...

i ll continue nxt day...feelin so low dat i fell downright for words..i cant put myself together to write..so many pictures rushing into my mind n lot of faces....miss you all....really miss these days.....it was quite wonderful to be together like dat, day n night.....dat may b y we all r so close ...love u ...

athira

explore........

Never in my life I felt so bad, being in a temple…I was frightened, I was confused ,I was disturbed ,I was ..I was literally blank in myself…
For me temple is d place of relief. .d place of calmness. .where every voice n noise, breeze n wind, rain n light ,got d power to pour rays of hope into your soul...rhythms dat soothes ur heart…chants makin u feel transperent..
..where I always keep my heart pure..where I always try to b my best…
evry steps we take is counted n ….…where we get lot of peace n calmness…an assurance of happiness n bright future..an invisible strength makin u feel better…
But…dis time it was different…………i saw lot of eyes ,with full of despair n hopelessnss written all over their face ..raising deir hands wen someone walks near ..dey might nt b hungry as dey get fud frm temple…but d life dey ve…wat dey might be xpectin to get?few shining coins of a world which castd dem away..most of dem r ill or old or too young ..
i saw a man with fish like scale coverin his skin…wat all thoughts he might ve in his heart,,,wat he might b praying…his life… pain of living…...we r waining over silly things asking god why dis to me but why are we not realisin dat we r lucky..as v usually see in junk forwards “ we r blessed..” i was not shocked to c such people in dis world but … d way d life has treated dem ,..its ssoo badd ....dey were cheated of their life..by everyone..even by d almighty,,,,why so much suffereings.so much pain..nt d physical pain alone but d mental agony he might b sufferin ….amma told me some disease caused because gods r displeased !!!!!I was frightend..is d god dis much cruel…NO.. dat cant be d right answer…nevr d right answer. …I was hurryin to get out of that place..wen I prayed I cudnt resist tears.why god?why all dis happens to one of us…n why d world including me treat dem like dis..n everythin goin in a flow dat we feel dat v cant do anythin..again d feelin of helplessness clutchin…I remembered d moral of an old story..god give some ,richness n happiness,some, poverty n pain ..d duty of man is to share ..if v r nt ready to share ..life bein a circle,wen v stand in pain no one will b with us to share their happiness…


Everyone is in search of their own identity..in their own way some knowingly some unknowingly…everyone wants to kno d secret of life..secret of human existence..secret of all supernatural powers..secret of gods n demons…..why ? how?..
Vivekananda said…don’t be attached to anything..evrythin dat man does n shud do, is his duty ..his karma..do his karma in d very best way he cud ,don thnk of rewards,don thnk of punishments…don be attached to anything ..nothin belongs to you n nothing will ever be…find d inner spirit where v cud find answers of everythin…be a seeker of knowledge…get d knowledge nt frm outside but from inside..from ur inner soul..where d real god live,,,d true bliss n peace will only stay where we ve d light of true spirit…let the inner fire glow…burning all our doubts.worries…evoke your spirit through concentrating your mind ..fill your thoughts with positive energy..do things dat make others happy ..emotions are transmitted ..when we r happy dat energy will spread..wen others r happy u naturally feel better…fill urself with positive notes.
Don’t blindly follow others but make some time to listen n observe….
Life is just a circle,everything in dis universe is a circle..we end where we start…sufferings n happiness are just two state of being ..don be too much into ur pains … dat ll never cease it but only burns it more…lot others ve gt much more worsen life..dey r livin it..dey r goin thru it..cos dey r strongr nt by birth but by life..living a life have got much more value dan we know or realize..its nt always about- be happy by ourself..thats for sure..so...live it no one else cud live ur life…explore your life cos ...do good,be good n don’t forget to define “good “ by yourself othrwise you ll feel chained….let ur life breath free!!!

live...live...

hii
today feb 16th..nothin special abt dis date...we all ve so many days wiped away frm our life without leavin behind anymark..its sometimes disturbin to think dat we live a full day in a way dat v ve nothin to remember..earlier i used to jot down somethin in my diary evryday..but aftr bein in hostel i didnt even get time to thnk abt my diary!!!..nw i kno its a part of life to always leave behind somthin, coz v don ve time or v ve more impotrnt things to do dan spendin time to make tokens of memeories......am goin home for study leave..donno y feel like missin d campus though feelin excited to b at home...humans r really queer..why v feel so contradicting emotions about the samethin at the same time..but dont u thnk dis contradictions make our life thrillin and sometimes worth leavin...always keepin some lnks here n there..some strings dat make u feel d pain wen some one pull..everythin counts in our life..each n evry moment countss..2day ve gt an internal xam(retail)..am rushin off..bye bye
no no..i vnt gone..don feel like studyin nw..after reachin home i ll upload some intrestin snaps which i likd...
ho..am nt feel like writin too..but anyway i ve no other options left..if i start sleepin nw i wont wake up 4 d xam..he he...wat a studious student!!!..
sometimes i think am being very much irresponsible but what is it like to be responsible ..he he..d ones who kno me ll say"xactly nt like u"he he..ok..i accept..but somehow i like to do evrythin in d last moment ..it ve gt its own way of fun..always doin thngs with a last minute of running around n panic..wat can i do..its d way i am..i always take resolution to b systematic but somehw it never works..still am workin on new plans to make me systematic..dont laugh ,one day i too ll b known as a very very systematic person..he he..but secretly i ll say...i like dis way...dis world dont ve any order,what happens around dont ve any order,our thoughts dont ve any order,past present n future don ve gt any order..den y shud we stress ourself by creatin an order to ourself which actually doesnt exist...am nt criticizin people who believ in order ,dey might ve created a world for themselves in which dey r perfectly happy n content..but for me its really tiring...but i do hate cluttered rooms n cluttered thoughts though both may give us lot of things to do and thnk...look ..again am contradictin..he he...human na?..
i ve read a book.."5 point someone "by chethan bhagat..gud work..he ve succeded in abstractin certain bare realities of life...hw v live a life totally carried away by certain things which v later think as dumb...v kno d meaningless of relationships which we bulit around ..still d way we cherish n treasure those strings as our life codes...coz without all dat v all bcome too free dat we donno hw to live..we all need strings ..to keep ourselves in d way v r...bt some make d codes too tight dat it suffocats n lead a life as mere puppets..i feel pity for those people ..it can b codes of loved ones,it can b codes of prejudice and attitude,it can be codes of religion n culture,it can b codes of education and status....whatever it is ,dont make those strings too tight dat binds ur thoughts n imaginations..coz thats d real way you have to live and thats 4 what you r really made for..its a fact dat we may nt b able to live in d fullest of our dreams but don b too harsh n blind to our glowin innerself dat plead for our glance...live !!!!!!!!

windy windy daysssssss

hi,
feelin great to b back ..hooo...frm 8 pm am tryin to get d net connected...am fed up nw...luk hw tech failures can scrample ones creative urge....he he....
i ve read a blog..by menakshi madhavan..its one of d most popular blog n penguin books r goin 2 publish it...mm...very different...don ask me if i likd it..my answer is short..only thing dat made me read is its "different"..ok leave it...
i ve lot n lot of things to write...jan 20 was my 22nd bday!!!!oh....did it sound too old....i don feel any change...but i tried to be a little bit serious..n ..don worry..hw can i change !!!!back in my paradise...

only thing i planned to do was to wake up a little earlier(its too bad if someone know dat i cant wake up b4 10 if dere s no class..)poor me...but i did woke up at 6 30 for 3 days but i found it utter boring..its reallyy great to sleep in d morning..

oh...last time i promised to write somethin about wind na?but crazy me its more than 2 weeks since dat...ok let me start..my campus is very beautiful...when i write the word i mean it...B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L....Wind is somethin seasonal here like rain..bt for me more dan rain it was a feeling of moments..moments dat made me thnk about somethin i ve never thought of....don ask me wat it is?i wont tell u...he he...its nice to keep secrets ..
ok comin back to wind..do u kno wat is wind?i ve d answer!!!
Wind is the movement of air over the surface of the Earth, from areas of high pressure to low pressure. But what causes the changes in pressure? There are a few concepts that we will have to explore to find exactly how this works, but ultimately all the energy on our planet comes from the Sun.
The Sun gives out all sorts of radiation, including heat and light energy, and is so powerful that it radiates 170,000,000 GW of energy to the Earth! Thats more energy in a second than all the electricity used in the UK in a month! When this energy reaches the Earth, the ground and other surfaces absorb it, and heat the surrounding air. It's these differences in temperature, together with the rotation of our planet, that create the wind.
got it babe???if ur answer is no...ok...come n join me..am feelin d same...he he... i don actually wanna 2 speak scientifically abt wind..dere r so many to explain n define...to me

bashing wind dat brings my soul out
thrashin my thoughts to fine tuned dest
smashing all stupid egos into a dot
clash clash clash..wat s dat???

where is my clutterd thoughts
rare is the spark i got from my doubts
there i got my hit from the clouds
care not those sparklin diamonds
clash clash clash..wat s dat???

never felt so strangely strong
river might have felt it long
mere slashes dat cut me gong
air just air ..clash clash clash.....

he he got somethin???dont dare to ask me... i felt d power of wind..thats it...its too strong bashing u to stay still..u can feel ur spirit thrashing to fly..fly...n fly...
but...over..its over...as some 2day told me"seasons change."..wind is gone...hey ,4get to write my fav book is Gone with the Wind...when i read it 5 yrs back ..i though of d title only as an expression of helplessness...like a feather who hve no option other than to float with the wind...but nw i see d power of wind dat could carry u away..miles away from ur world...but is it ok??only sometimes..na?u don always feel like goin away frm our world...right?d wrld we live in is actually somethin v ve created by ourself..though v don kno hw n wen v created ..its lik dat....n silently we love our world...coz here v r happy....even wen v don always call dis happinesss....hey,its happiness yaarr...why cant v understand dat....we all are stupids includin me...he he....
am feelin really sleppy..that may b y am typin all rubbish...he he...bt am nt goin 2 say soorryyy...i don lik dat word..though i may use it 10 times a day...
ok ok...byyee..let me goo...2maro am goin home..only 2day i came ....he he.....i love myyy homeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee........
i ve lot of things more to write ....ok catch u soon...
gud night...swet dreamzzz
athi

snaps...

hii
its me again..time 2 47 pm..no class..i don ve any plan to write ..nothin is there...feelin little bit gloomy ..doono y...hmm....ok...let me show u some snaps..don sayin dat its great...but as its taken by me its fav for me...he he....

Two snaps from my bedside window......my misty world.....(3 pm)

here comes some more....i love dis world......

in evryones life ther will b moments like dis....dim bt beautiful..

what shud i write abt dis...

dis s my fav one..donno y...still dat moment breath....

y clarity to express?????....cant u feel life here...chillness of breeze warmin our heart....

....sunny days...

time to go....only now i gt a wonderful theme n hmmm.....let me begin it b4 i 4get..its nt abt soothing ,caring breeze....but abt mind blowin wind...it wont sooth u bt just make you 4get ...4get evrythin with its slap...i donno hw am goin to make you feel d wind...raindrops can b felt just with its twinkle but winddd??he he..let me take d challeng to make u feel d windd....huiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

d wrd wind may nt b very much attractive bt d feeel is soooooooo differnt dat ...it ll carry u to anther wrld...oh no..not nwwwww......i wanna read something abt wind ...den let me find out wat others thnk abt it...he he....so catch u soon..

athira

oh dis song is ssooo nice.. ..aararum kanthe ..(chandhrolsevem)...nt frm d moon ..am listenin 2 it...he he

hey thankuuu ..nw i m feelin great.!!!!...ve gt classs nw....bye byeeeee....

a starter...

hii
back 2 my campus ...holidays was just superb!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!home sweet home...where in dis wrld can i b dis much happyyyyyy...miss you allllllllllllllllllllll out there.......
ohh..forgot !!!HAPPY NEWYEAR...2008...figure seems to be really strange...but i kno like b4 it s just for few days..\
....one more year withered away...leaving behind a bunch of memories...n lot of moments to cherish...to me 2007 was a year of continunce....in a strange way i feel that a lot from the year 06 lingered with last yr...like beeds in a string.....usually evry newyear start with lot of resolution but dis time i was trying hard not to make any....now i feel really good...i dont ve to do something for d sake of keeping some promises which i ve givn to myself..(DONT GIVE PROMISES WHEN YOU ARE HAPPY AND DONT TAKE DECISIONS WHEN YOU ARE SAD)
when we break promises it is very easy to find excuse..if d promises are gvn to others its again much more easy, to convince others n ourself with excuses...but if its gvn to ourself its pretty dificult to convince ......thats d way i feel...n am very good at breaking promises..also an excellnt excuse builder....But i know which r d promises dat r nt 2 be broken at all n those promises which are excusable for making excuses...he he
wat a mess am typin in..i donnoo...actually am really tired n wanna sleep.but i wanna write somethin 2day itself coz dis is my frst day of dis year in my campus...first days are days tat to b marked ...na?dont you agree...??ok...if not.leave it......it dosnt matter either way...
sooo byee..catch u soonnn
hey 08,goin to b with u for one yr..hope both of us ve a great time together ....Looking forward for bright mornings,cheery faces n lot of happy flowers that can bring lot more colours to me...

athira